The Parable of the Unforgiving Servant
“Then Peter came up and said to him, “Lord, how often will my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? As many as seven times?” Jesus said to him, “I do not say to you seven times, but seventy-seven times.
“Therefore the kingdom of heaven may be compared to a king who wished to settle accounts with his servants. When he began to settle, one was brought to him who owed him ten thousand talents. And since he could not pay, his master ordered him to be sold, with his wife and children and all that he had, and payment to be made. So the servant fell on his knees, imploring him, ‘Have patience with me, and I will pay you everything.’ And out of pity for him, the master of that servant released him and forgave him the debt. But when that same servant went out, he found one of his fellow servants who owed him a hundred denarii, and seizing him, he began to choke him, saying, ‘Pay what you owe.’ So his fellow servant fell down and pleaded with him, ‘Have patience with me, and I will pay you.’ He refused and went and put him in prison until he should pay the debt. When his fellow servants saw what had taken place, they were greatly distressed, and they went and reported to their master all that had taken place. Then his master summoned him and said to him, ‘You wicked servant! I forgave you all that debt because you pleaded with me. And should not you have had mercy on your fellow servant, as I had mercy on you?’ And in anger his master delivered him to the jailers,until he should pay all his debt. So also my heavenly Father will do to every one of you, if you do not forgive your brother from your heart.” Matthew 18:21-35
It seems to me that the church today and maybe forever, has no ability to extend grace to those around us. I think maybe this is true for the entire human race but as the church, we should be different! We should be like Jesus! We should be striving every day to be extending grace and forgiveness to each other! Why arent we?
Anyone who is involved at all in fitness probably knows who Jamie Eason is. She is a very beautiful woman who struggled against and won the battle against breast cancer and it started her down the fitness trail. I dont know that much about her to be honest because quite frankly, I never really cared for her. Yes, I know, it is terrible and I am ashamed to admit it but I am human. As a woman, Jaime is everything that any woman secretly or openly wants to be! She is petite and beautiful and has perfect looking hair and the perfect body that appears to always look exactly the way it should!
Jaime is a fitness model and writer and is employed by bodybuilding.com. On the forum side of things the men would always put up pictures of Jamie in tiny underwear or swimsuits and there are probably millions of post made about her and how beautiful and perfect she is. For this reason, even though I admired what she was able to achieve, I didnt like her because she looked amazing and I was far from anything amazing!
Yesterday afternoon I was waiting for an emergency to come in at the end of the day and I was stalking people on facebook (that sounds terrible doesnt it?) and someone had posted a shared video from Jamies facebook page. The video was her sitting on the floor by her bed and crying and talking about how her husband had lost a job because of her past. I had not realized that she was a christain let alone that she had gotten married.
As I watched the seventeen minutes of her pouring out her heart in regards to her past and her faith and her present I was struck at what a truly amazing person she was! Here I had judged her because of a time in her life when she was caught up in the world and the ways of the world and I had not extended her any grace that she may be suffering just as I was or had or so many of us do!
We women are very easy prey for the enemy to get us caught up in sensuality because deep down everyone longs to be someone! We want to feel as though our lives count for something! We want to feel like we are somebody special and the enemy use sensuality and sexuality to pull us into misery! I have been there! I have posted pictures that were overtly sensual because I was searching for attention and I thought that that kind of attention was what I needed or wanted!
It is still a struggle sometimes even now. As women we work hard to overcome the aging process and the fat butt and the fat thighs and get into shape and it is nice for it to be noticed. The female body, heck any body is an amazing work of art when taken proper care of. After all, God made it in His own image! But the world is full of lust and it is easy to fall into that trap!
Jamie talks in her video about how miserable she was when she was doing the photo shoots with minimal clothing on. She wasnt making any money but the attention was nice to have and she got caught up in it. Honestly, who wouldnt? Look how many great men of God get caught up in the fame and fortune of being on TV and before you know it they fall flat because they get caught up in the gold or the glory or the girls! The enemy knows how to bring us down!
She tells of how she was saved at the age of 15 but never really understood God or the bible. She did what she wanted and rationalized her sin like so many of us do. As glorious as everything looked from the outside she was miserable inside and she started asking questions and went to the bible to get the answers she sought. God used Ezekiel 36:26 “And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh.” to draw her to Him and to give her a new heart for Him! What an incredible story.
She was married the first of September or so and her husband is a musician from what I can gather. He was asked to do a christian concert in Texas and someone must have said something that caused the organizers to look up Jamie and they told him that they did not want him because of her past.
My hearts a bit broken today. My husband was asked to play a huge event for some churches around Texas. Everything was all set but then they called him and said that they looked him up and found ME so they recanted. Doesn’t feel too awesome. I wanted to share this because I’m still trying to overcome decisions I made early in my career. Taking sexy photos may have made me popular but trust me, it attracted all sorts of misery into my life. My audience is predominantly female these days and it’s such validation for how far I’ve come and how hard I’ve worked, so thank to those who follow and support me. I want to encourage anyone who has a conviction to persevere. It’s in times of faith that we grow the most and although people will often disappoint us (even church people), God won’t. Work on that relationship! Trust me, with all that life throws at you, He’s our greatest refuge.
To Michael: Thank you for loving me, flaws and all!
The above is her facebook post regarding the incident. I was so saddened that we as the christian community have ZERO grace or tolerance for another members sins and failings! Certainly is someone is living in and rationalizing their sin then there should not be the same tolerance but if someone has repented of that sin and moved past than we should also! We all have done things in our past that we have regretted. Certainly it might not of been having sensual photos taken but be honest with yourself, if your every sin, every bad thought, every action taken when no one was watching was posted out there for the world to see and know, what would they say? How would they treat you? Wouldnt you want them to extend you the same grace that God did when He forgave you for those very sins?!
Instead of criticizing and judging our fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, why are we not loving them and trying to learn more about them?! What if that organization would have contacted Jamie and her husband and said, “we are concerned about this, what do you have to tell us about it.” They could have heard Jamies testimony and it could have been used and if nothing else understood! But instead they chose to harden their hearts and not extend any grace! It greatly saddens my heart that we as a group are so unforgiving and so judgmental! We are nothing like Christ as a community!
I think we should all reflect upon the above parable of the unforgiving servant! We who have been forgiven so much and yet we are unwilling to let go or forgive someone elses mistakes and sin! Why?! Nothing good happened to the unforgiving servant! Is that what you want in your life? Cast away from God and made to pay for your own sin?!
The body of Christ needs to get over its higher than thou attitude and humble ourselves and make our lives about doing as Jesus would and not what we think we should do! We are all sinners! We are all fallen! We are all in need of grace! He who has been forgiven much, loves much! Are you forgiven much?! Where is your love?